Saturday, November 28, 2015

When change altered the stability


It starts with a realization of something being wrong in the usual. Then, very innocently it shows you a solution, a way out, something that is new and gives you a tinkering little bit of excitement towards using it no matter whether you have the power to kill the excitement or not but that is 'Change' to me.
And then there is the other one, the calm lake, the one that seems so quiet that there might have been ages since its surface ever knew any disturbance at all. Everyone loves it. Even the nature's rules favour it. Everything in this universe heads towards.. Stability.
Even our mind does. The sole existence of all our needs and wants is directed towards a better living, a peaceful mind or if we use the one word that sums it all up, stability. The funny thing is, if we read this last line of mine carefully, change is the sole hero, not stability. I mean wherever change goes stability follows, and not the other way round. So all our lives we keep on fighting the king, to get the queen whereas if we cordially invite the king to a dinner party some day, the queen follows up in his wake. Now I was gonna start this article with the following para, but I left it to time as I had other important things to do and lo, I found this beautiful little explaination with time. So here goes:
Working till late one night or rather, in my first unofficial night shift, I realized that the work was not gonna end today. I was new and like many freshers, was afraid of taking initiative in any situation. The Clock was ticking and ticking... and the mouse was still clicking under my finger and on and on.. It was tedious work and unlike usually, was unmindful. I was alone in office so after some gaps of work, I would stare around me in disbelief. "How did I end up in this situation?" "Why could I not say 'No' to him? It anyways was not my work and he literally pasted it onto me so cleverly and went home like everyone. The rascal. How stupid of me!"
This was Arjun Sharma to you. Ek Satyawaan Pandit ka Saakshaat udaharan. :D (An epitome of a true 'Pandit') I would not have used this word that I am just about to quote but I don't know somehow I don't care whatsoever now. I was a Coward. Thats not what my mother or people who brought me up ever taught me to be like but you know as they say it that some things you do not learn, its what you are. And so I was, an ever so talented looking, one with straightforward ideals, curiously attracted towards knowledge and facially cute-looking boy from outer crust to the innermost layer of the mantle, but (..and no-matter how much my mother and well-wishers tried to change it while they felt they could) a cowardly core. They say that they'd slap me and run away and I'd not realise it, but the truth is I had already noticed their intentions when they felt they should slap me but could not react well to stop them.
Let me be abrupt now, I beg you. Be it less time or some other reason, but I can't be more frank regarding this change that I am talking about. I can still quote its effects. So, at that time I was still immature, clung to my attitude as if it will stay with me and go with me. I might have been happy or might not have been. But I was living it, not feeling a need for any change at all. I felt I was powerless to change course anyways. But lets just say I found a sparkling drop of water on my windowsill one day and I innocently touched it. I can't express the soaring feeling, the realisation of truth, of care, of responsibilities, of what is right and what is wrong and power to support right and say 'no' to the wrong. The powers that I already had, but stupidly as it is I never felt that I did. And I must say, I am showing it off as if it was sudden but No, it was gradual and very very painful. And I found I had the power to bear that. However, I was also surprised that I liked it. I even wished for more. Because somehow I knew that in some time I'd see the other end, which I did. Somehow, I am calm now and much more happy with my decisions than earlier. And whats more, I am still changing.
But rather than opposing it, I am embracing it. I love the fact that I have my own opinions now. So the truth is, we are happily standing on a preferred step of a ladder. We feel no need for the change and also feel that we might not get a grip on the next step and fall. So we keep standing there. But why have we become so afraid and weak? Man is so different from other animals because of his ability to think about a step further. Get up couch potatoes, buckle up for the journey called life on the cycle of change. You can stop in the way to take breath and catch up with your stability. And then move on again..

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